BREATHE

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Hold your breath. Hold it for as long as you can and try to imagine death, the death that you’ve craved and tried grasping for, The death that you’ve tried to embrace but always met a closed door. Feel your chest tighten and you brain beg for the oxygen, that’s the only feeling that confirms your body exists outside of the numbness, that’s the only feeling that keeps you in control since the blade and the scissors don’t have that appeal anymore, because even as you bleed the wound closes up eventually but with your lungs it’s there on call with no evidence at all, so you strain your body and it’s hurts internally, the only side effect being your ability to not breathe for a while increases and it’s a talent, Hold your breath hold it for as long as you can and try to imagine death, the death that you have evaded nine times out of ten and maybe like a cat your life is more than one and you’ll survive even when thrown in the lion’s den, the death that you’ve seen your friends try to evade, the one that constantly calls you by your name, let go of the guilt that prevails when the thought of hurting people keeps you at bay, is living for them worth the suffering? but hey, when you hold your breath you die for a second so that’s as close as you can get, when you hold your breath your consciousness is too weak to defend itself, But when you inhale, a new lease of life is given, you have 2 more minutes before it’s taken away against your will so hold your breath and take the control, because when the air is gone there is no fear of the unknown BREATHE Breathe in the guilt and pain, feel the sharpness in your chest as air rushes in again and remember the pain is what keeps you alive, remember that the piercing in your lungs is a symbol of no escape, breathe in the gift that the universe has given, a gift you had no choice in but have to preserve, a gift of guilt and fear fear that if you don’t you’ll be damned in your soul and the suffering will never ease, there is no escape, so breathe in breathe in the beginning of another end.